Delving Deeper

Egads!

4.8.2026

Deeper and deeper, delving into my inner unknown, yet to be discovered. When you let go of expectations and attachments, it’s simply amazing what comes up. Surprises. New people and connections. New scenery. New situations. Ones that can take your breath away, ones that feel so nourishing, you wonder how it happened.

I’m learning, here. Learning about quantum energy, how to embrace and to coax and entice it. It’s there, it’s always there, it’s only a matter of allowing it to appear, to greet you with its beautiful aura.

Each morning, before anything else, I am practicing. Bringing this energy up, throughout and around. Life is simply endlessly instructing us, bequiling us with its sensual wooings, its whisperings of, you can do this, it’s available to you now, this very sensational moment. This very alive moment, like no other and will never happen again.

Take advantage of it. Use it. Use life’s energy because it’s there for us to use. To experiment with. To enjoy. To make the best life, ever.

I watch those around me, with banal, unexciting lives and wonder, why do they remain stuck, as if standing in quicksand, slowly, ever so slowly, yet incrementally going under, inches at a time?

Perhaps it’s fear of the unknown. Fearful of a life that doesn’t meet their expectations. Then there’s that quote about not expressing your greatness and staying small. I’ve stayed small most of my life and I’m no longer willing to be put into a box, told to censor myself. What good is censoring, when all of us have stories we want to share with the world, or at the very least, process through us, by writing, perhaps speaking?

It’s so vital we speak and to share. Our stories empower us, clarify our lives and help us to move forward, leaving the past in the past.

It’s interesting the way, when we pursue a higher path, how things can come crashing down, as if to poke us in the ribs, hard. My phone earbuds disappeared, yesterday, my laptop headphones, that I love, just broke in my hands and my roommate’s regular angry

clashing of pots and pans are something I have to listen to. Or maybe head out to the beach.

Which is what I intend to do. While I also pick up new earbuds and a new headset.

Life. Always surprising, always new, always–sometimes–inexplicably ridiculous.

Now in total exasperation, Love and Bliss,

Ruthie